In the darkness of early morning, I struggle to open the overflowing drawer of workout clothes. It's fullness demonstrates my lack of exercise in recent weeks. I may strive to be a supermom, but I'm not that good at keeping up with the laundry.
The truth is, I haven't opened that drawer in far too long. Instead, I've made excuses and let other things become the priority.
And emotionally, I've felt the difference.
Do you ever feel so psychologically overwhelmed that you just want to run away?
That's the spiritual battle I've been fighting lately. One could label it a post-traumatic response to a major life crisis coming to an end. The enemy has been on a mission to steal my joy.
Slipping one foot and then the other into my running shoes, I still fight a great lack of motivation. However, I keep moving because I know it's good for me. It's what I need right now. Running has always been a very therapeutic outlet.
Pulling disheveled strands of hair tightly into a ponytail, I think about how far today's run will take me. One mile. Maybe two… After all, I am feeling pretty tired.
Then something almost indescribable happens as I place my running hat firmly on my head, threading my ponytail through the hole. A spark of energy maybe?
I slip my arm into the band which holds my bright pink iPod loaded with worship music, and reach up to put the ear buds in place. My finger touches Play as I begin to place one foot in front of the other, slowly increasing in speed.
Exhaustion, worry, fear, stress, impatience, anger, frustration, weariness… all begin to surface as the enemy tries to convince me to quit.
My body aches, yet I keep running. My heart is pounding and tired, yet I keep running. My mind is fighting the temptation to stop. Still, I keep running.
And as I continue to run, I suddenly get stronger. More energized. Creative. More focused. Grateful. More aware of God's presence. He's fueling me. He's releasing my fear. He's comforting my worries. He's pointing my mind in the direction of His will.
Today, I didn't run away. Instead, I chose to run all over satan. And I feel great!
Today I'm linking up with Ann Voskamp's One Thousand Gifts.
#71 - The indescribable feeling of the runner's high. Especially when my run was a total worship experience.
#72 - Bonding with Faith while we made Valentines together for her classmates.
#73 - Sisterly love that I never got to experience as the only girl in the family. My daughters are so protective and loving of each other one moment and are at each other's throats the very next.
#74 - Abby's perfect and very natural ringlet curls. I just can't get enough of running my fingers through them.
#75 - God's protection and the way He reminds me of His presence just when I need it most.
#76 - Pioneer Woman's recipe for Knock You Naked Brownies. Mmmmmm…..
#78 - It's February and we don't have a speck of snow on the ground. Just tons of beautiful sunshine!
#79 - Ten glorious years of marriage to my husband. Thank you, God for the gift he is to me.
#80 - Dirt marks on my daughters' faces after rolling down grassy hills at the local park. You know they've had a good time when they're all dirty.
#81 - Racing in the grass at the same park with my daughters and all their friends. Not only was it good exercise for me, but it really tired all the kids out.
#82 - Fried bread…also referred to as elephant ears or scones. A tasty way to use up leftover bread dough!
#83 - Meeting new Christian friends online in the blogging world.
#84 - Reading to my daughters. Especially when they snuggle up on my lap. Although my six year old is getting a little bit too big for this one.
~Until next time, may God bless you with His strength!
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