The journey of unemployment for my family has been a long one. The emotions have been raw and have run deep. Everything from anger to loneliness to depression. If not for our faith, I'm not sure our family would still be strongly united and hopeful. God's hand has been hard at work over us.
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
I can't fully explain how I feel today. I know I feel free. Like I can breathe deeply. And I'm tired. Very tired. But there's something else brewing inside my heart. Inside my soul. Giddiness maybe? But at the same time, I almost feel like falling to my knees in tears.
I received this note from a dear friend yesterday.
"Wow, I feel like I know a real, live celebrity! Congratulations!"
My book is published. It's done!
I stayed up until a little past midnight Monday fighting with technology, table of contents, cover images, and Kindle. I wrote a book description and an Author Bio. I determined pricing. I prayed. And then I said, "it's good enough" and with my hand shaking, centered the little arrow over the word that could completely change my future...
Moments later I carried my weary, yet nervously excited self, up the stairs to bed.
At 4am, I popped awake and my mind instantly reminded me of my accomplishment. I can't believe I wrote a book! How did that happen? Where was this written in my childhood dreams for what would become my life?
I forced myself to go back to sleep.
At 5am, my mind wrestled me awake again. I wrote a book! I shared deeply raw details of our journey. Will this end up hurting my family? Is this really something my husband supported? Was this a mistake? Will I look like a fool? What if my readers hate it?
A quick prayer for peace of mind, and I forced myself back to sleep.
At 5:20am, my eyes opened and stared at the clock. It was no use. Sleep wasn't an option anymore. I was awake. So I got up and started my morning routine of immersing myself in God's presence. About an hour later, I got an email from Amazon.
The book "UnEMPLOYED Faith" you recently submitted to KDP has been published to the Kindle Store and is already available* for readers to purchase here.
My heart skipped. Only God! He prompted me with the idea. He pushed me to start this blog. He gave me the courage to share our story. He gave me the words for this book. He gave me the fortitude to conquer technology even though I felt completely overwhelmed by the process. And He will determine who this book will speak to.
No, I'm far from a celebrity. But I do think I'm getting a very tiny taste of some of the pressure a celebrity feels. It sort of feels like I'm running around naked in front of a crowd of spectators. I know my flaws. I'm my own worst critic. It's a little unnerving to reveal those imperfections to the world.
But this is obedience. This is faith. This is what God called me to do.
Friends, if God is calling you to do something big and bold, swallow your fear and your pride. Pray for courage. Step forward in faith. Trust God's lead. He knows what's best and He deserves to be glorified.
One of the best ways we can glorify God is through our own faith-filled obedience.
Have you gone through unemployment recently or are you enduring it now? If so, purchase your copy of UnEMPLOYED Faith today.
My prayer is for those enduring a lengthy season of unemployment to be encouraged by the words of this book. So if you happen to know someone who could use some encouragement, hope, and JOY through their unemployment journey, please pass this book information along to them.
If you'd like to download your digital copy but don't have a Kindle, Amazon has a FREE Kindle App you can download to your PC or smart phone. Then simply purchase your copy of UnEMPLOYED Faith for only $4.99. Also be sure to visit the UnEMPLOYED Faith Facebook Fan Page and give it a Like. This will ensure you stay up to date on the latest developments. *By the way, as of mid February 2012 this book is also available for sale via Barnes & Noble NOOK.
A BIG thank you to all of my readers who have followed me, prayed for me, and encouraged me on this journey. I am forever grateful for your love and friendship.
~Until next time, may God empower you to respond to His call with faith-filled obedience!